Zen advice:
It feels good to be humbled, and humility is a precursor to absolute relief. Another way of saying the exact same thing is: Some level of you is pained by your unconscious refusal of the causal experience of humiliation, and surrendering to this pain will lead you straight to God. Another way of saying it: By not understanding that emptiness is blissful, you are depriving yourself of the deepest relief possible, and if you were brave enough to accept this on a moment-by-moment basis, nothing in the world would ever feel humiliating again.
The technical aspect of remedying this heartbreaking mismatch between God and Man involves making a full object the subtle body while the gross mind is operating in its ordinary way, all the while detecting a feeling of loving relief in we-space.
Self-deception is eternally possible; it is an option available to all Bodhisattvas at any moment of inattention, and the perspective from which that is a causal experience of terror is Buddhahood. You should really try to see how long you can last in that state. If you could spend a full minute surrendering to its intensity, you would be the most enlightened person you’ve ever met.
That is the sensory flavour of the switch from idiot to Buddha, and played backwards that same switch turns out to have the sensory flavour of joyful relief. That’s why gratitude is said to feel so good, and it is why even masters can fall into hell, and why you should not idolise your own thoughts. All of this is one template!
It feels humiliating and wonderful at the same time to wake up, no matter how often it happens, and you should aim to have it happen often enough to understand the importance of that simultaneity. That is genuinely brave spiritual practice.
You cannot claim enlightenment if you are not at this moment drowning in relief without turning the relief into an immortality strategy.
BEATING THE POISONED DRUM 